Dying to Live “Health Care System”

As I travel through this diagnosis of stage 4 breast cancer everything arises to the surface. A topic that is demanding my voice is the Healthcare system and Alternative Holistic options. Today as I talked with “S” my Social Worker I spoke of how bleek and dark the Healthcare system is when diagnosed with a…

Dying to Live “Victim”

This is a very sensitive area. Victim, what is this actually? Well in the deep dive journeying work I have come to realize my “victim” is a main player. This victim has become its own character, fully realized, living through me and in the driver’s seat at the moment. Through this work I am becoming…

Dying to Live “Adoption”

My anxiety has been at an all time high these past 6 nights. Unable to sleep through the night, awakened at midnight, then 2 am, maybe 3 am if I am lucky, now awake for the day! I find myself awake at 3am this morning feeling unsettled and anxious. I decide to write in hopes…

Dying to Live “The Last Samurai”

For those of you who have watched this classic movie I hope you will feel what I am writing here and for those who have not maybe my words will pierce through into something?! I write this at 10:45pm as I just finished watching this movie. I cannot sleep until the essence of what it…

Dying to Live “he/she never chose me”

It is a time of massive upgrades, shifts and changes! What does that mean? Well what it means from where I am sitting is my deepest core wounds are manifesting in real time. Everything that I have been uncovering over the years around my triggers is being expressed in real time with other people.  None…

Dying to Live “My Dad has passed over!”

Its really an interesting blog today, in my “dying to live” I am writing about the opposite direction of where I am going! My Dad died, passed or crossed over, ascended, left the planet! All these terms to describe a human body ceasing to be as it was. The first words my Mom quietly said…

Dying to Live “Old Wounds”

An old wound flooded to the surface while watching a movie based on a true story the other night.  I was feeling really uncomfortable in my body the more I watched it.  After it ended I discovered that I had a lot of stuff still trapped within me around my father.  I realized that my…

Dying to Live “My Diet”

My health is a whole system including my physical symptoms, as well as my thoughts & beliefs, emotions, past trauma, how I process and view myself, the environment and the world & population.  Also a healthy diet  is my fuel and medicine.  The people I am around matter alot.  If I feel drained, anxious or…

Dying to Live “personal check in”

This journey has been my most challenging and rewarding one and its not over yet! I have kept this news to myself as I knew once it became open to all people that I would be up against everyones feelings of their own perceived “sickness” and “death.” I would be faced with others sadness and…