As the true scorpio ♏️ 🤪 I am there isn’t a day that goes by that I am not self aware and processing anything not of the light or God. It’s exhausting 😪 and also empowering and exhilarating all at once.

I was not surprised when my internal guide demanded that I address my addiction to my phone. As my lazy part goes, it ignores the call for as long as it can get a way with it. Then the power and force of harmony and balance in the highest form wins and demands I deal with what it has brought.

So here I am addressing my addiction to my phone. I have definitely been observing myself as I scroll seeking to be filled up and never am. But a ferocious need driving me to continue the endless scrolling, seeking and praise of my ego shadow. I compare this to the science experiment studied in Psych 101 with the rat 🐀 constantly going to the push lever for the hit of cocaine. And how it remained going long after the cocaine had been taken away. I don’t think this needs explaining.

I have been the one to leave my phone at home when going out unless it’s a photoshoot. I am also the one who doesn’t have my phone sitting with me while visiting with a friend. I want the human intimacy way more than my false phone social media connection or the possibility of a text message, whatsapp or Facebook or Instagram. Although when alone and feeling disconnected I have been known to reach for it. I feel this unquenchable need to find something worth screaming from the mountain tops as I search and scroll. I never feel that, what I feel is boredom, disconnection, disappointment and an overwhelm of information. I see a network of souls all in the machine of social media trying to sell what they have, share their beautiful scenery shots, life stories, ideas and beliefs, fears and terrors all through a screen or audio. There is no substitution for human contact in the flesh. And the tool of the cell phone is taking this away. It’s normalizing false connection and an addiction for real contact through a false draw into fulfillment in another way. Developing an UNQUENCHABLE THIRST for intimacy from something that will never deliver it!!!

Please take 7 minutes to listen to my video and see if you relate and maybe we can connect in a more real and authentic way, in person, what a concept.

And yes I realize in order to bring this message to you you will be on your phone as I have been on mine AND JUST MAYBE this message will inspire you and me to connect in a more human flesh way… ❤️ 😊 this is my wish!!!